Hopeless Hopes

I feel the blood getting sucked away from my head..
It's just as if I'm going to faint any second..
Uselessness, idleness, hopelessness.. All fails me today...

Hands bound together; chaos, within an arm's reach.
I have surrendered to mother destiny,
Sucking that venomous milk from her rusty nipple...
Feels so wrong today, an accustomed feeling
Yet it surpasses others, rips me apart..
Do you feel my heart pounding, can you hear my rage?

Words decode into images of misery,
A friend's screams corrode my life, etches the pain inside..
I, the failing confidant, now exposed and vulnerable
Growl deep inside, feeling so helpless..
Now I can feel "fate" with all my senses..
Its audible laughter, its painful whip..
Cleansing the joy from the outer rims of our life
Giving us a toy to play with, a Trojan Horse..

Embedded in the sonic waves of the nightfall
I see darkness through my blindfolds
I adapt to that fist inside,
The squeeze that brings tears to my eyes..
It is pure awakening, when you can feel your body throbbing
A safe place amongst all the scourges..

All of a sudden a stranger is hurt out of nowhere
It's the pleasant cramp of dusk
Effortlessly tying our bonds to the light
And our mellow darkness brings desperate nightmares..
We run, but the truth is out shoulder
Whispering the reality from time to time..
And then we fall, helpless fetuses...
As if we'll be out of harm's way
By imagining ourselves in that shelter,
The caressing warmth of our beloved ones..

I feel the blood sucked out of myself..
Now no word matches the flames inside
As I try to slither up to the light that awaits me
Within the bungle of darkness's grapple..