Saturday, October 27, 2007

Yet Another Blasphemy Malfunction (Jun 01, 2005)

Yet another tragedy to be faced

Yet another failure of the hopes I have been holding on to

And now the tides are loosening and I feel myself again falling into a dark chaos...

Only screams in my head... No vision... Only wailings of the earth beneath my feet, only the gloomy light of the hell I have fallen into

No vision but shadows and screams...

Torment... Suffering...

Yet I see another fall... And then another one... I wasn't able to face one and now I am facing two of them... and I feel corrupted... no one to help me... no one to hold my hand while I walk along this thin line with the fiery earthquakes in my head...

I see myself falling... I see everything fading away... I see them all falling away from me... I cry and my tears rush away from me...

I lose my way, I lose the path...

I accept the time as a surrogate religion... I feel the chronoclast inside me...

I have to speak but my jaws are rotten... They resist my temptation to yell...

I lose consciousness... I lose them... I lose myself...

And at the point of no return...

...I realize it's not me anymore...

...I realize it's her eyes that draw my route to loss...

...and I lose it all...

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