Hope

'Twas I who banished thy hope, says a voice and I look around..
Surrounded by void, my search was encapsulated by the simple darkness..
A shiver hit my body with a slam as I started to give a staccato vibration..

Before, I was covered in a blanket called hope, and I used to call it home.
I remember the tender colors touching my skin as joy fed me from it's breast..

Then one day all perished.. Someone took it all away from me..
Well, actually only hope..
But with hope, all else began to fall apart like faulty friendships.
I shouted at them, told them to come back,
Promised them that I was going to embrace hope once more!
But all was void without the hope
And sound didn't like the void that much
So it remained as a useless vibration in me that turned into shivers..

I was cold and afraid, left alone in darkness
A child sucking his thumb, expecting ghosts...

The ghastly images of my past appears as I try to find grounds to stick my head in like an ostrich..
But in void, there's nothing but blackholes..
And if you get your head in one, the head might stick out of your butt or anywhere in the void
Yet the ghastly images will confront and haunt you with joy..

I tried to lure them away with treats, scare them away by threats
All failed..
And now I confront the biggest enemy of all: the realization
that the life I roll through is one that I cannot interfere with the word "my"
One is an interstellar traveler and the other is a vegetable...
Haha, laughters of joy..
and a sudden despair..

Now I reside in no void,
As my thoughts are immobilized by the despair I am drowning in...