Born in the Midst of an Abyss

Look..
Right back 19 years ago..
See..

Look..
Right to this moment..
See..

Report..
You can't..
Because there is an absolution of nihility in the air..

So what? What happens if I was born 19 years ago?
Moments pass and days pass and I am thrown into deeper pits of questions..
No answer feeding my hunger off..
What good is it to know that you are one year older instead of living it without periods?
What good is it to live while suffering in a world of demise?
What good is it to feel the deepest agony from the spikes of your grinded emotions?
What good is it to be here without knowing what you are?
What good is it to function without knowing your aim?
What good is it to know that your only definitive purpose is the one defined by your carnal properties?
What good is it to not be aware of what good is it to live?

Well, I guess I have thousands of days to find that out...