Burden

I conceive a burden bigger than my capabilities...
It has been growing in me faster than any child
Yet it has been taking it forever to come out..

Words stuck to my tongue, images stuck to my head..
I don't feel right, I know I never will, but I try..
By you, I will try to smile..
But the happiness of having you by my side is incomplete;
It still needs the accompaniment of "forever"...

I am bound to believe that the better days will come
But the future is laid in front of me like a hopeless battlefield..
My desperate efforts to avoid it are futile series of embarrassment..

I will continue to fail, will never give up, but will always want to..
I know that I will never claim the trophy that will never be mine..
I will always carry this burden by my side...