Nothing Will Be the Same Again

I always wanted to call myself a simple fool for playing with such big words,
I would look at myself in the mirror and say "What are you doing? Leave that alone!
You're going to break it.." I always saw myself holding the Ruby, trying to steal it away..

It was one of those nights that I sneak peeked at what was right below my chest.
I remember myself being horrified after that sight bedazzled me for weeks...

That's how everything began..

I just went back to old memories as I felt the cold chill on my back..
It was patting my back, saying "Everything will be ok", a sentence
That gave nothing but pain and took my faith away..
After all those years, there was only this cold chill that was slowly killing me
Waiting for it's reward that I kept in my chest..
My Ruby..

  *****

The first time I looked at it was the moment that I knew I could not live without it..
I knew that it was that one thing that kept me alive,
Pumped the words to my tongue and fingers...

I was to keep it for myself, I knew it.. it was going to be my own secret that I'd be buried with..
That's what I promised, and I kept it. Until..

Until there was the second person involved, the one that I wanted to share my secret with
I let them sneak past the dark chambers of my mind, through the traps
Into that grand chamber to share that moment with me..

They looked away, they didn't care..
They acted as if it wasn't there..
They spat on the Ruby, I kept it clean
Tried to save it from them, but I should've known
I should've stuck with my oath.. For ever..
With every single word, the Ruby shattered, the juice leaked
and I saw it die with my own eyes.. I patched it, healed its wounds..
Now it looked just like new..
Then I promised, to keep it alive..

The promises were to be broken
Just like the Ruby..
It was constantly attacked, my weakness..
I was not the perfect guardian, I failed..

Now that huge monument that took my mind away
Was nothing but a small rock in my palm
Keeping alive with my chest's warmth..
I could hear it moan, I could keep it dying..

*****

I looked at myself in the mirror..
It was that kid that played with the Ruby
Not even knowing what it was..
I told him, nothing will be the same again..
He looked at me, smiled, and dissapeared out of sight..

Now a sullen heart lay bare in this world
Unguarded against all the filth..
I lay down on the pedestal of the great temple that was its..
Now ruled by wild ivys and tranquility
And a cold wind that watched me give up..

I coughed, blood spurted, I knew the end was near,
I heard the wind whisper "Everything will be fine"
I let go a smile, closed my eyes, watched my soul rise..
I clenched the Ruby once more, felt the warmth
I knew that my hand wouldn't let go
Even when I was away..