A Trip to the Mind - Deep Within Dark Chambers of Solitude

I can't swallow.. It's beginning to get harder.. It's always dry now, no matter how much I drink..
No matter how much I drink, I still feel the pain.. It is there to remain..
It just won't fade.. Not from my head.. Not those images of dread..
I feel.. I want to get lost.. I want to be nowhere.. I don't want to be found.. I can't...

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This is not the end to all of my sufferings..
I always felt this way, so I was ready..
I was always ready for another blow, right in the middle of my face..
Just like an arachnophobic waiting to be attacked by a spider
I was prepared for the full blow
I was ready to digest it in my own nothingness
I was ready to feel the misery in my bones..

The day came and you were there, in front of my eyes..
I just didn't know what day it was.. No one told me..
I learned it a couple of weeks after that it was the day
That my eyes met your eyes
And my heart boarded itself to you..
That attachment.. Never felt before.. Never..
And never to be felt.. Never being able to set loose.. Never..

Nothing was to happen.. I knew it.. Look at me, and look at you...
Look at me again.. And look at you again.. And look at you.. And look..
Your beauty has captivated my eyes again, yes, again..
And the fairy tales of "Once upon a time" plays in the background
A story of you and me, never to be of history... Yes..
Ahh... Such comforting moods of reality..

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None such luck can be of amending quality!
Pure existence! Pure existence! I realized!
I long realized the essence, but never took a sip.
I just let myself roll along with the waves
Along with the thunderous sound of the winds..
Silence.. That is the blade that cuts through me!
The vicious entity, not wanting me here anymore..
It is painful, yet the reality itself..

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It all runs in the blood like a memory..
But it's all a dream now.. An unreachable dream..
So long, happiness; welcome, suffering..
You, in the arms of someone, a nightmare...
You, in my dreams, only a dream, no reality..
Equations of the mishaps past my vision..
Part ways with the reality that no one wants to accept..
Ahh.. The sole truth patting my back for being a good boy..
Such a lovely obedience.. Such a lovely pain..